The Meet

So I had a target to goto a meeting with other like minded individuals, although this would be a vanilla meeting.

Anyway the deadline was looming where I had to get this arranged and had a very kind reminder if it wasn't met then I would experience my very first punishment session - something that I do not want to experience.

I found an event which wasnt too far from me, seemed on paper to tick the boxes, i.e. nothing too extreme for a meet on my own, although I was bricking it to say the least.

The meet was last Wednesday and I had been uptight all day just thinking about it, subconsciously I did put on all black clothes in the morning - realised hmm that wouldn't be the best idea.

It was to start at 6PM, I got to the venue pretty early and waited outside for an age, watching people go in etc, then had a walk around for a bit and got a strong coffee which really didn't do much for me - unlike a very strong alcoholic drink would have

By this time it was about 6.15PM and after having several arguments with myself and reaching the decision 'it wont kill me' I walked in, I had to look for someone dressed in black!, I spotted a few people and I was about to slowly walk over when I heard a voice saying 'well hello, not seen you in a while'.  OMG the worse possible scenario just happened, 'the voice' was someone that I had worked with previously, first panic mode set in - shit were they here for the meet and just recognised me, or were they here for after work drinks. I panicked and was completely thrown by this, so after turning a complete beetroot and for once I was lost for words I had to stand and speak to this person - they kept saying am I ok which didn't help my paranoia anymore, and eventually I escaped and walked out.

So now - was I just extremely unlucky or did I pick somewhere which was too risky (not convinced on that), but am just so nervous now about that which on top of being nervous anyway it was a complete disaster.